To the man who broke my heart,
It is truly your lose. You never deserved me. You never even came close to being worthy of me and that was something you could've easily changed. You made me so many empty promises and told me so many lies that I cannot believe I am still sitting here with you on my mind. You're good, I'll give you that. You made me fall head over heels for a guy who, to be quite frank, could give less of a fuck about me. You had me. I was yours. My heart, body, and soul easily would've belonged to you if you would have ever asked. You gave me false hope. You told me we were over and that we wanted different things. So i agreed, because I will not compromise my beliefs for someone else. But then you came back, saying you wanted the same things and you missed me. So i believed you because you were the boy who had my heart and you were good with those words. I guess that saying really relates, "Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me". But in my case it is more like fool me 734 times. I guess it never really got in my head that this isn't how I should feel in a "relationship". I shouldn't be walking on egg shells and not knowing if it is a good time to ask you how your day was. A relationship shouldn't feel like a game. But boy were we playing a game, a game that you damn well mastered. Yes our "relationship" felt like a game, but I do not think that is what bothered me the most. I would have loved playing the game with you but I didn't know the rules and they changed every god damn day. You made it hard to catch up. I would have loved you so fiercely and made you the happiest man on earth. But you never let me. You never let me get close.. All i ever wanted was to love you. For you to trust me. For you to want me. But things aren't that simple. All i got was a broken heart. I wasn't in love with you but I easily could have. Even though things were so damn complicated, you made it so easy to fall in love with you. You said you'd been hurt before.. I hated her. Gosh do I hate her. I was convinced she ruined you. She destroyed you before I even got my foot in the door. I never stood a chance because she got to you first. Now taking a step back, I feel sorry for you. You shouldn't let the past hold you back. I sure as hell am not going to let this derail me from falling in love. You crushed me but you did not break me.
Sincerely,
The One Who Got Away
